Solastalgia

by Chris De Souza

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Britani Aarsen Love everything about this album - Listened to 'Right' on repeat until the full album came out :)
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Pain in the Jazz Favorite track: Circadian.
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This music came to be on Dharawal land. I acknowledge the traditional custodians of this land in which I live and work, in particular the Wadi Wadi and Elouera peoples. I acknowledge the sovereignty of all Aboriginal Peoples and Torres Strait Islanders on this unceded land now known as Australia. I pay my respects to Elders past and present.

May this music welcome all, and for those on the wild road of reckoning with the bondage of privilege, may it provide a little company.

May we abdicate our little kingdoms for the wholeness of this planet found within the cacophony of our shared belonging.

This music is not meant to be any kind of resolution to tensions uncovered. It's written with a hope and belief that if we want to keep inertia at bay, we're better off together.
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May we all break on through to the other side.

-Chris

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released November 20, 2016

Produced by Chris De Souza, Steve Schallert & Tyler Neil Johnson

Drums: Jared Falk (drumeo.com)
Bass, Hammond, Piano: Aaron Rathjen
Electric: Steven Schallert (steveschallert.com)
Harmonica: Cale Stanage
Vibes: Jillana Rathjen
Viola: Sylvia Bartel
Additional drums & percussion: Svein Storsæter
Vocals on "Darling", "Kingdom" and "Southerly": Becca De Souza
Vocals on "Right": Jessica Friesen
Vocals (All in All) on "Kingdom": Becca De Souza, Bryan & Jessica Friesen
Vocals, acoustics, electric, synths, programming: Chris De Souza

Tracking at The Shining Rose Studio (Abbotsford, BC) engineered by Tyler Johnson (tylerneiljohnson.com)
Drum tracking at Drumeo Studios (Abbotsford, BC) engineered by Taylor Lennox
Additional tracking at Lungi Studios (Wollongong, NSW) by Chris De Souza
Mixed by Nic Manders (www.smokemusic.co.nz/nic)
Mastered by Nathan Tiddy at Green Room Productions, NZ
Cover artwork by Andrew Luttrull (instagram: @luttrullator)
Print design by Matthew Wormald
Web design by Nathan Mulligan (bishopofbalance.com)

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Chris De Souza Wollongong, Australia

Great-grandson of Dublin, grandson of Mumbai, born in Yellowknife and raised in suburban Vancouver, Chris has spent the past decade becoming a family man in Wollongong, Australia.

Chris spent the greater part of 2016 in the sanctuary of his little studio working on these tunes tunes that represent a shifting/tearing/fleeting/healing sense of self, community and place.
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Track Name: Circadian
God help us go to bed
We’ve been betrayed our phones are dead
We hear the coming of Circadian
These years have given way 
to desperation singing out each day
The gaps are shrinking 
what the hell have we just done


And there shall come a day 
when blisters from the friction heal again 
my fingers taking in your skin 
I drink it in but I’m no cistern


Circadian
Such a cold sun
Gravity has won
There’s no point trying to run

Circadian
Laid bare in the swordplay
Dividing joint and bone
Spirit from the soul


You can't write your own eulogy 
For what you suffer willingly
Words rediscovered like a lost melody
When those who loved you come collect your body
clean you up and dress your body
weep upon your chest
Burn into a memory


In the shadow looming over me
This loomband is my rosary 
An apparition I can feel
I’ve bottled up the best of me
And poured it out at Bethany 
A taste of death is an epiphany

Circadian
One last revolution
Our scars sing out the song
The stars try to hum along

Love won’t be outdone
Love won’t be outdone
Love won’t be outdone
Ever, Ever
Track Name: Right
Round and round we go
You see this street is A cassette
Where B repeats exactly what we know the other side's just said

We ride upon a track
that keeps the cycle of our choices
rolling overtop the voices of the ones we dispossess

I just wanna do right by you

Lord of hosts let down your son
to set the table where we finally
eat the bread beside the ones we’ve
dragged beneath our tyres

We’re gonna need the wine to wash the truth down
That there's nothing we can do
to fix it even if we set ourselves on fire

I just wanna do right by you

Holy ember burn so bright
Touch my mouth put hate to flight
Kiss away my need to prove

Cause I just wanna do right by you

Lord of ages
we’ve just begun
to face the music
to face the sun
Lord of hearts
the time has come
not our choosing
but theirs be done

I’ve done so much wrong by you
Track Name: Ghost
Holy Ghost
come and heal my soul
Pull me up from the depths below
Could you heal my soul right now

Holy Brother
come heal my spirit
when the breeze blows I can't feel it
Brother heal my spirit now

I don’t know when
And I don’t know how
But it feels like rain
And it feels like now

Holy Mother come and heal my body
The moral arc's dragging slow and steady
Mother heal my body now

Well I don’t know when
And I don’t know how
But it feels like rain
And it feels like now

It feels like rain
And it feels like now
Track Name: Hide
Always testing the waters before I'm jumping in
I know 16 to 23 ain't gonna kill a man
But silent hypothermia sets in and you don't know when 
Think I'll just sit here in the shade

My wife heard a blue ring washed up on the beach where our kids swim
My life is a film on inertia and coming out even
But violent anxiety rattles the bleachers I'm sitting in
Think I’ll slip under in the shade

Cause it's a lonely life
When you ain't got no fight
And it's a bitter pill
When you're just trying to not get killed
It's a travesty
When pain is all you believe

It's ok I'm fine
Happens all the time
So you can count I'll hide


Rest for a bit here in the shade
Happened so quick like a Brutus blade
This little kingdom’s gonna fade

I’m thinking that jumping this ship could permit me to live again
Down into deliverance waters I'll sink or I'll swim again
My daughter beholding with wonder the squalor and decadence 
Think I could fit here just the same


Cause it's a lonely life
When you ain't got no fight
And it's a bitter pill
When you're just trying so hard to be still
It's a travesty
When pain is all you believe

It’s a glimpse of light
When you crumble and you survive
And it’s better still
When the fire alarm is a drill
It’s a melody
When the pain finally sings out in grief

Think I’ll come out alive
Think I’ll come out alive
Like the changing of the tide
So you can count I’ll hide
Track Name: Darling
In the leaving is the lavishing
6 miles up I feel the gravity
In the needing is the reckoning
through and through I
Wish that you were
here next to me

In the tasting is the sacrament
Wasting nothing of this house we rent
In the bleeding is the reverence
We have come
Far beyond
Our innocence (Darling)

You’ve been on my mind
for days and months and years
As I’ve fumbled through the haze and all these fears
When we met who would've known that I’d
inspire so many tears

But almost every night when the babies are asleep
Pain somehow finds it’s way to love
And you somehow find your way to me, Darling

You receive me as the falling snow
Every baptism that I provoke
You’ve acquainted yourself with my sorrow
Everything that’s
Infinite and
Natural (Darling)

You've been on my mind
for days and months and years
As I’ve fumbled through the haze and all these fears
When we met who would've known that I’d
inspire so many tears

But almost every night when the babies are asleep
Pain somehow finds it’s way to love
And you somehow find your way to me
Yes, pain somehow finds it’s way to love
And you somehow find your way to me, Darling


Come to me (Darling)
Come to me (Darling)
Come to me, come to me
Track Name: Kingdom
All in All in All in All in All

Image of the invisible
Firstborn, like a sign
to the patrons and presidents,
multinational empires

the ones leeching their time
upstream from the bloodshed
Water turned into wine
It’ll never be depleted
This love will never die
This love will never die

In us and to us
Beyond us and through us
Your Kingdom come
Over and under
Surround us like thunder
Your Kingdom come

Break down our bunkers of shame
where we hide in the lies
And tear down all we’ve built up in vain
Sweep it out with the tide

‘Cause in us and to us
Beyond us and through us
Your Kingdom come
Over and under
Surround us like thunder
Your Kingdom come

In the minuscule and the majesty
you're holding our existence
In the beautiful and profanity
you're sharing our existence 
In the thrilling and mundane
In our numbing and our pain
In the One who was slain making everything new again
You carry our existence into Kingdom come
to Kingdom come

Bring it all under cover
In the arms of our Mother


‘Cause in us and to us
Beyond us and through us
Your Kingdom come
Over and under
Surround us like thunder

Your Kingdom come (All in All…)
Track Name: Southerly
Brakes take a beating
down the pass from Robertson
Aloe vera pealed across the Nullarbor
down to the rim

Never crossed my mind to think
about the wind and where its been
Hammerhead in brackish water
I can’t see what’s right in front of me

But I never bothered
Sure as hell nobody taught us
And I never thought of
The intimate lines you were singing to each other

Oh, when I waltzed right in 
When I waltzed right in


Shaking like a fevered child
you take me in and make a bed for me
Though we are forsaken
Kata’s on her way to cool our heads, you see

Burning out the underbrush
the canopy protects our memory
Undergirding for all the us
the vapour will condense eventually

Everything covered
Fathers and mothers
Then we can be lovers
The intimate lines we’ll be singing to each other

Oh, But I don’t know when
Oh, But I don’t know when
But I don’t know when

Southerly  
Evening muse
Say you’ll stay
Heal the wound 

Suddenly
Slight of hand
You find a way
to cool the land